The Badminton Tryouts

So yeah, there's finally going to be a senior badminton team this year and yes, I tried out. I made such a fool out of myself... lost to some of the players I use to be able to beat. It was so depressing. I want to make it onto the team, but I don't know what went wrong after school on Thursday. I wasn't trying my best; and to tell the truth, I was in pain.

I haven't done sports in 2 years. I'm quite rusty. The first tryout was on Monday, so I went to that. Nobody expected it to be on Monday. so basically nobody was ready. On Tuesday was the second tryout. I was in jeans, doesn't give too much movement ya know? On Thursday was the last tryout. I finally got my shorts and my new racquet. I was already in so much pain. I couldn't walk up the stairs. I played a total of 5 games and lost 3 of them.

I'm pretty much praying that either there will be another Badminton tryout, or I'm going to make it onto the Badminton team. Hopefully Ms. Huff will remember that I made it into the regionals in grade 10 and give me a shot at the team again this year. I know I'm a bit rusty, but with a bit more practice, I'm sure I can do it. It's quite unfair to tell the truth. They had a Badminton team last year, seniors (11s and 12s) didn't, so the seniors was pretty much forced not to improve (except for the ones in who are in like a Badminton club or whatever). If Ms. Huff is going to choose four grade 12's and four grade 11's, then I have a pretty good chance of making it onto the team; but if she just chooses the best ones... I'm really doubting myself.

Ms. Huff said I could be the Manager of the team if I don't make it in. Hopefully the Manager gets to play. At times, I don't even really know if I want to be on the Badminton team. Don't get me wrong, I love badminton. But to play it for the school seems to be a lot of pressure on you, ya know? If I'm the Manager, I wouldn't have to play it competitively. But I just don't want people talking behind my back saying how I'm just the manager because I didn't make it onto the team.

*Sigh* Wish me good luck...

Worried, Paranoid, Freaked

Ugh... So another horrible day... First thing this morning, Math. I had a quiz, and I didn't understand what I had to do... it's terrible. I feel so horrible.. what if I dont make it into UBC?? I'm worried, I'm freaked, I'm depressed and I'm stressed. I sound paranoid, and the truth is I am. Both of my parents want me to make it into UBC because my mom works there. I see the benefits, but can they see what kind of material I'm made out of? I'm not some super genious like some of my friends... I wanna cry... I already did in chemistry today... I need to study, study, study!

Happy New Year!!

In the new year, I want to start fresh. That will be my New Year's Resolution. I've never had a resolution before, so hopefully I'll be able to keep this one. I want to start fresh with all my friends and forget all the fights and bad times that we've ever had. I want to forget about the people who have hurt me this past year, and by forgetting them, I mean to forget them completely, forget that they even exist. And if they're reading this right now, you know who you are. I want to start a new life. Everyday is a new day. Whatever happened yesterday is completely forgotten. Although that might be a problem when it comes to school work. We dont want to forget everything we learned at school... heehee... hope not.

Also my goal for the year would probably be to get into UBC, I need to work harder at school and everything. I'm pretty pissed off at my Math test mark and my Chemistry mark is dropping terribly. So I have to bring them up. Physics is good and I need to keep it up. so I guess that's all. Have a Happy New Year, Everyone!