I Don't Want To Turn 18!!

So yeah, apparently I'm having a birthday party on Saturday and I didn't even know about until Friday last week. Actually it was SUPPOSE to be like on the 10th or something, but because it was so close to exams, I said that I didn't think it was such a good idea. It was just some spontaneous thing my dad decided. My dad is leaving two days after my birthday to go to Japan for some installation work. He is probably going to be gone for approximately a month. My granny asked him what they're going to do for my birthday and my dad just invited everyone to come over to our house on Saturday. Our house is a mess, and dont exactly want people to come over. I definitely don't want my 2nd aunt to come over. I get this sense from her that she hates me. Everytime I go over to my granny's house, I just get this cold glare from her and she doesn't answer me when I greet her or anything. You think she would have been over the "blowjob" thing by now. I mean, if everyone believes that she didn't do it, why the hell is she still all pissed off about it? Is it real of what I said? I dont want to go there anymore.

It's most likely going to be a family party even though I invited Hanson, Lynn and Alex to come along. If anyone else would like to come and wish me a happy birthday go ahead, but most likely not enough food for everyone if they decide to come.

Speaking of the "blowjob" incident, that reminds me of Emily. Not that I know she did it or anything, but just because she was involved in the incident. I remember that she use to have this really cute keychain with her ex-boyfriend. It was this heart that can break in half and then they have their names engraved onto it. Hanson and I went to metrotwn and I bought one too. Just as soon as I said that I haven't seen her for a while, she shows up at my granny's. Speak of the devil. Anyway, the keychain is so pretty and I kept the side that says "Hanson" on it. So yeah, everything that Emily does is so spontaneous. I gave her my cell phone number and then she called me on Sunday night and asked me if I wanted to go to the night market. I said that I can't, because 1) I can't drive and my mom doesn't like going to crowded places and 2) the next day is a school day and I have no idea how long she wants to go til. Anyway, I think that's all I have to say. Have a good day. Enjoy the beautiful sunshine!

Grad / Prom

Grad was yesterday and well i woke up at 8:00 to get ready for Hanson because I asked him to arrive at my house at around 9:00 or something. Some of my friends started messaging me over MSN and was telling me how excited they were about Grad. I was like "well then you probably shouldn't talk to me or else I'll just bum you out." I wasn't excited about grad at all to be honest. Strange me, huh? But after everything, I'm glad I went.

Hanson came over at around 9:00 like he was going to. Because earlier, like a few weeks ago, we put Lynn's stand in the back of his trunk hoping to give it back to Lynn, but never got a chance to. So I went outside with him. He popped his trunk open and there was this big bouquet of roses. I was so shocked, and happy at the same time. This is my first time receiving flowers. It must have cost him a lot because it was a really big bouquet. He also got me a corsage, he asked for a wrist one, but they gave him a pinned one, but that's ok. So right now, the big bouquet of flowers is just sitting in my bedroom, I really dont want it to die, or else I'd have to throw them out...

So later, before Alex came over, we ate McD's and and then my mom helped me put on make up. When she was going to put on the eyeliner, she told me to look up. So I did, but I still saw this pen coming towards my eye, I was like "OH MY GOD!! I don't want it anymore!" So yes, no eyeliner. This was probably my first time wearing make up. Hanson said I looked different. Well DUH. I thought I looked older, which I kinda didn't want to. Oh well.

We got to the school and almost everyone was there already. It was pretty pointless to waste like $100 on a limo when nobody even saw what you came in. Alex and I avoided the red carpet by getting Hanson to drop us off at the side of the school and Alex and just walked into the crowds so nobody saw us. Oh well, it was no big deal. I really didn't want to have the feeling where people are just staring at me. I saw Lynn and Cole walk down the red carpet. They look so good together. When I saw Lynn's dress the day before Grad, I thought that she looked like a bride. The color of her dress was so close to white but when she went outside to show my mom before I left, It looked sort of beige in the sunight. There were girls at Grad who were wearing white though.

At the Banquet, the food wasn't exactly good, but i ate most of it anyway. I left some food on the plate because I was too full, and if I was to eat anoter bite, my dress would probably rip, heehee. Anyway, the slide show was good, but there was only one picture with me in it. The speeches were funny. And during the speeches and slide show, I couldn't exactly go find Hanson, I saw him coming in, but I couldn't exactly get to him. Until people started dancing was when I could get through to him. We went onto the dance floor at the very end of the last song. How long was it? Like 10 seconds before the song ended? Anyway, they started playing the song, "Celebration". We saw Travis disco-ing and kinda joined in. I've never been to a dance before, it was actually pretty fun.

Later, I was trying to look for Alex because I wanted to get going to my Granny's house. My Granny finally got a chance to meet Hanson (she asks every week). I kind of fell asleep on Hanson's lap while he had his arm around me. So sweet. Later, I didn't wake up until my mom said that my dad was back from my Uncle's (he went over to fix his computer). Hanson didn't get to take me back home, but he gave me a kiss on the cheek before he left. On our trip back home, Alex and my mom started talking about gas prices, heehee, but I fell asleep at the back of the van and didn't hear much. So overall, the whole day was good. I'm glad I went, but I dont think I would have exactly "regretted" anything if I didn't go, like what some people say. But anyway, thanks for making me go, Lynn.

Long Time No Post

Hey guys! Haven't posted for such a long time. I'm guessing that nobody cares anyway. Well, badminton season is over (so sad, so sad). I wish it lasted longer, badminton is just so fun. I tried convincing my mother to let me go to badminton in Vancouver on either Fridays or Saturdays. But since I'm usually out with Hanson on Fridays, Saturday is my only option.

I went and came back from Alberta, the band trip. It was good until we were in Calgary. Why, why would the twins invite "it" to go see our concert... and then not just that, they blamed it on Tara and said that she invited "it". Whatever. I call that backstabbing. First lying to me that they blocked and deleted "it" back in September or something until I found out in December and then inviting him to go see our concert when they knew that I was gonna be there. Not just that, at the end of the concert as I just walked out of the elementary school, they were taking pictures together near our bus. What the hell were they doing??? I'm not blind! Have they never considered my feelings??? Honestly if they don't care about my feelings, I could care less about theirs.

Anyway, on Sunday, I went to the mall hoping to get my top left ear pierced and apparently they dont do gun piercing on cartilage anymore. I was so bummed out. They banned gun piercing on cartilage in BC only! So if I were to drive to Alberta and get my ear pierced there, it'd be ok. And the worst thing was that they only banned it about two months ago. Quite the burn. They said something about how gun piercing is so fast that it could easily damage your cartilage. I've had it done before, but I guess there's a reason for why they banned it (probably someone got hurt?). So yeah. Lynn and I decided to go downtown and get it needle pierced in the summer. My mom was like "I dont trust those places" but the thing is that I really wanted to get it done.

And now, the biggest thing this week, GRAD. Honestly, I didn't want to go in the first place. It was such a hassle to get things together. I know I already have a dress and everything, but there are other things to worry about too.. like how to get there. I got Hanson to drive Alex and I to Grad, but then that meant that I had to ditch Jaimee and Kellie. It took a lot of courage to actually tell them that I got a ride with Hanson because the twins and I had decided earlier in the year that we were gonna go together. Actually, we decided on a lot of things together but they never happened because all they procrastinate too much. I know that they're crazy over anime. I use to be too, but I have my limits. We got into this huge fight over the internet and they just blocked me. Whatever.

That happened a couple of weeks ago and now they just pretend that nothing has happened. Although I had this feeling that the twins were spreading rumours around the school about me (kinda had an idea cuz of Saherish's question in chemistry class), but I won't mention what it is over the internet. I want to ask them about it, but then they're just going to make it a big thing again and say that I'm jumping to conclusions. They make little problems big. When I see Tara in the hallways and stuff, she doesn't even say hi anymore. I could honestly care less, just because I'm that kind of a person, but whatever they were probably talking behind my back like they talk behind Melissa's back all the time.